we took turns taking lunch to take care of my sweetie pie. and when it was my turn these are the pictures:
nathan had his second haircut last saturday - november 29, 2008. still havent upload the pics yet.
lately its starting to feel like a drag again to go to work and to leave the house. i hope things get better. but more than that i wish that i could get another job, better yet a business that will enable me to work at home. so i wont have to leave my nathan.
mommy has been here in Cebu since Monday - November 17. And in a matter of hours i'll be flying back to Manila. Can't wait to see you and your dad. I'm going to give you lots of hugs and kisses when I get home. We'll have lots of quality time, playing and hugging and watching your favorite cartoons and mommy showering you with big kisses.
time flies so fast. i used to hope that my son would grow up so fast. but now i long for the days when i could still carry him in my arms and lull him to sleep. i miss those days when i have to cuddle him and sing him songs to sleep.
he's such a big boy already. dont grow up so fast son.
i miss you big time baby. mommy is here in cebu for a week. i get to go back home on the weekend and then i head back to cebu next week. i miss you soooooooooooo much baby. =(
Early this morning, past 3 am, my husband and i got home from the office. He had to leave early since he's not feeling well and I on the other hand am on the mid-shift so I finished around half past one am.
My son, woke up to the sound of the car when hubby was parking it. Went back to sleep shortly. Since the dogs knew we got home they were ecstatic and Coffee woke him again with his tail's ecstatic wagging. She - Coffee - doesn't seem to mind where she bangs her tail. Not that she hit my son with her tail but she pretty much banged it on all the structures in my mom's room - the bed post, the hamper and everything else. Thus, waking up the little boy again and causing him to cry.
I immediately rushed to Nathan, to pick him up and reassure him that it's just Coffee and that I'll be there till he gets back to sleep. I told his nanny to bring all his stuff to our room and that the little boy will be sleeping beside us. He got past the sleepy state and perhaps he thought it was already morning that he wanted to play with me and his dad.
Hubby left us in the room when the little boy was starting to get
sleepy again. He ate his "baon" and went to the shower. I was then
singing lullabies to the little boy. After a few minutes thinking that
he is already asleep, I paused and was then about to check if he's
already asleep. I was lying on my right side facing my son, who was
then lying on his left side facing me. His head was on my right
shoulder. While I was about to check on him to find out if he's already
asleep, he surprised me by clapping his hands. 
I was really surprised and amazed. I was laughing with him when he
looked up to me and smiled and eventually laughed. But then after a
really short while, my laughter gave way to tears. Tears of
unexplainable happiness that I could not contain. I guess moms live for
these moments. I hugged my son real tight and told him I love him no
matter what. I sealed that moment with a kiss on his forehead and both
fell asleep.
Time went by so swiftly doesn't it? This time last year, I was just being wheeled to my room after resting at the recovery room from a ten (10) hour labor. I remember it like it was just yesterday. The woes of pregnancy and giving birth, but it was all worth it when I saw this little guy. After he was out, he cried and I saw the two nurses clean him up in the table to my left. Then the older nurse wrapped him and had me kiss him. When I said "Hello Nathan" he immediately stopped crying when he recognized my voice... and it was all worth it. I'd gladly go through it all over again for this little man.
the date was June 30, 2008 - the sun is shining gloriously outside and the room was bathing in sunlight. you were trying to wake me up by putting your head on my shoulders nudging me to get up. you were trying to keep yourself entertained by listening to the neighbor's roosters do its wake up call in between playing with the blanket (ours is printed with 2 teddy bears, while your dad's have taz in it.). once in a while when i feel that you're already trying to go down i'd manage to get you back by holding on to either your foot or your torso and pulling you back closer to us.
i must have dozed off for a few minutes and when i woke up all feeling of sleepiness completely flew out of the window when i find you looking like this. you were trying to find anything that would entertain you further while your folks are dead asleep.and that means rummaging through all those things that are in those 2 trays. reminds me that i need to get something else that will secure those things before you become better and better at walking which means you can get your hands on them easily. you were then wearing your pajama and night shirt and you still had your socks on, which made me all the more frantic since you could have slipped and bumped into something considering that its slippery when you have socks on. thank God for angels!
your ninang mel said you look constipated here... hehehe and so many people kept on saying you got your looks from me. =)
i miss spending quality time with you yesterday son. i had a long day at work and i opted to wait for your dad to pick me up after his shift. after which we went to a club house where we were thinking of having your party for your birthday. unfortunately someone else had the place reserved on the day we wanted to have your party.
when we got home, i'm completely amazed at how you immediately recognized who i am when i opened the small gate yesterday. you shouted and giggled with delight and all of a sudden i felt rejuvenated upon hearing you. when i went inside the house i was rewarded at the sight of your smile.
i took you in my arms and you were ecstatic to be carried by me, you almost leap from pat (your yaya) to me. God! you are growing up so fast i wish i had more time to spend with you. by next month you will turn one year old. not too long ago you were a helpless little infant, but now we had to keep a steady eye on you since you are curious about everything around you that you want to touch and taste everything.
you are a perceptive child. you could readily sense when people are upset or unhappy and you are immediately affected. you also know what you want and when you want it. oh your such a big boy now, but to me even when you grow up you will still be my baby boy.
on my next entry i will tell you about the time you were hospitalized, which was last week - june 7-10. for now, i still have less than 20mins here at work. after that i will head straight home to make up for not spending time with you yesterday.
written on January 23, 2007 @ 12:00am
i wish i could give you the wind, the ocean and all the birds, to constantly make beautiful melodies that will lull you to deep slumber as you dream beautiful dreams.
i wish i could give you the sun, to give you warmth when my embrace fails to take away the winter chill.
i wish i could give you the moon and the stars, to make a necklace out of them and place them on your neck. but their grandeur will pale in comparison when one gazes at the innocence of your eyes.
i wish i could give you the world, for you to hold it in your hands and play with it.
i wish i could give you everything little one, a world entirely different from the one i grew up in.
but i could only give you my love, which sadly, will inevitably fail due to the fact that i am merely human. but it is a love that is as constant as the ocean waves lapping on the shore, mighty and yet gentle just the same.
