6 posts tagged “motherhood”
The date is april 17th. It was a beautiful day, the sun is out and we (you, me and your auntie Crystal) were inside our room having a trip down memory lane by gazing at the old pictures in our desktop computer. It has been your habit to sit down my or your dad’s lap whenever we’re in front of the computer. Then all of a sudden while you were walking around, you broke the monotony of our exchange of thoughts when you walked behind me, placed your hands on my shoulders and planted a kiss on my right cheek. “Aawww… that’s sweet”, your auntie Crystal exclaimed, while it took me a few seconds to let it all sink in.
My little boy giving me a kiss, yeah how very sweet.
Yesterday morning everyone left. Your father joined his office friends/management team for an out of town team building; your lola went to church as usual, where she spends her entire Sunday at, and our helpers – Elsa and Pat, together with your aunt Crystal, went to church. I woke up and saw you still asleep and I went out to check out the dogs and try to prepare a bowl of cornflakes cereals for a quick breakfast. I just had 2 spoons of cereals and then when I came back to our room, I saw that you just woke up. Still a little sleepy and yet smiling to a new day. It never ceases to amaze me that you always wake up with a smile. I pray and hope that it will always be like that for you.
I’m not used to being totally alone in the house with you, since you’re one big bundle of overwhelming energy when you are awake, nonetheless, I gave the helpers permission to go to savor the quality time I’ll have with you. Right after having you take your vitamins, which I’m grateful that you readily obliged, we played and goofed around. You recently developed this fondness to go through the drawers, the shoe racks and the trays and grab anything and then throw it away. I was initially thinking of reprimanding you as your grandma would like to always have it (being so inclined to nagging and spanking as a way of discipline) but then I know it’s not right to do that knowing you’re just a one year old boy and that there will be a time when it will be appropriate to do that. For now, you are a baby and I let you do as you wish. I just went to interfere once in a while when you got hold of something breakable.
When the clock struck 8, I decided it’s time for your breakfast. So I played the movie Cars in our desktop while I re-heat your chicken and macaroni soup in the microwave. I let you watched the movie while eating breakfast. It was great to do those things and I wished that I have more time to do that. After that, we went out to the living room where you went directly to the shoe rack and threw away all the shoes. You were having fun so I let you be, it was sort of a play thing for you and mommy played along. You were gazing at me once in a while and I smiled in approval. It went on for a while and I went ahead and started to heat water for your bath while watching you from a distance. When I felt the need to organize the things we need for your bath and to clean up all the clutter, I played on one of your videoke CDs and tuck you in your stroller.
I was thinking twice of giving you a bath or waiting for the helpers. But then I willed myself to go ahead and do it since I don’t get to do it all the time, and it’s the first time that I will be giving you a bath without anyone assisting me. So after I have prepared all the things that we will need during and after your bath, I bravely took off your seat belt in your stroller took off your clothes and diaper and brought you inside the bathroom. I was praying really hard that my clumsy fingers won’t slip and let you go as accidents can happen. What struck me most was that while I was giving you a bath and I was holding you tightly, well I was actually embracing you, so I got all wet – while I have my right arm wrapped around your torso, you turned your head to look at me. You had a questioning look on your face. I was thinking that you were probably wondering why mommy was the only one giving you a bath when you’re used to having 2 people giving you a bath. I managed to finish it all by myself and I think I’ll start doing it more often. J After doing your after-bath rituals (putting lotion on is your favorite) – lotion, powder, diaper and dressing up, I made you lie down your makeshift bed and then went out the room to prepare a bottle of milk. You startled me by showing up next to me, apparently, you went to follow me. You watched me prepare your milk and after you saw mommy shaking the bottle, I was all the more surprised that you went back to the room as soon as you were sure mom was able to finish making your milk. Then I found you lying down at your spot and clutching at your comfort blanket. I then turned the AC on and gave you your milk.
Then you finally fell asleep after finishing your milk and shortly after your aunt Crystal and the helpers got back from the church. It’s one Sunday I won’t forget, in fact, I might even suggest they do that every Sunday to give us time to bond.
in a matter of less than 5 months, you'll be turning 2. although its amazing how fast you and how big you've grown that you look like you're a 3-yr old kiddo. day after day i marvel at how fortunate we are to be entrusted by the Lord with you. I pray that God will give us the wisdom and to teach us the things that we need to know, to train you up in the way that you should go.
love you son!
i miss you big time baby. mommy is here in cebu for a week. i get to go back home on the weekend and then i head back to cebu next week. i miss you soooooooooooo much baby. =(
Early this morning, past 3 am, my husband and i got home from the office. He had to leave early since he's not feeling well and I on the other hand am on the mid-shift so I finished around half past one am.
My son, woke up to the sound of the car when hubby was parking it. Went back to sleep shortly. Since the dogs knew we got home they were ecstatic and Coffee woke him again with his tail's ecstatic wagging. She - Coffee - doesn't seem to mind where she bangs her tail. Not that she hit my son with her tail but she pretty much banged it on all the structures in my mom's room - the bed post, the hamper and everything else. Thus, waking up the little boy again and causing him to cry.
I immediately rushed to Nathan, to pick him up and reassure him that it's just Coffee and that I'll be there till he gets back to sleep. I told his nanny to bring all his stuff to our room and that the little boy will be sleeping beside us. He got past the sleepy state and perhaps he thought it was already morning that he wanted to play with me and his dad.
Hubby left us in the room when the little boy was starting to get
sleepy again. He ate his "baon" and went to the shower. I was then
singing lullabies to the little boy. After a few minutes thinking that
he is already asleep, I paused and was then about to check if he's
already asleep. I was lying on my right side facing my son, who was
then lying on his left side facing me. His head was on my right
shoulder. While I was about to check on him to find out if he's already
asleep, he surprised me by clapping his hands. 
I was really surprised and amazed. I was laughing with him when he
looked up to me and smiled and eventually laughed. But then after a
really short while, my laughter gave way to tears. Tears of
unexplainable happiness that I could not contain. I guess moms live for
these moments. I hugged my son real tight and told him I love him no
matter what. I sealed that moment with a kiss on his forehead and both
fell asleep.
i miss spending quality time with you yesterday son. i had a long day at work and i opted to wait for your dad to pick me up after his shift. after which we went to a club house where we were thinking of having your party for your birthday. unfortunately someone else had the place reserved on the day we wanted to have your party.
when we got home, i'm completely amazed at how you immediately recognized who i am when i opened the small gate yesterday. you shouted and giggled with delight and all of a sudden i felt rejuvenated upon hearing you. when i went inside the house i was rewarded at the sight of your smile.
i took you in my arms and you were ecstatic to be carried by me, you almost leap from pat (your yaya) to me. God! you are growing up so fast i wish i had more time to spend with you. by next month you will turn one year old. not too long ago you were a helpless little infant, but now we had to keep a steady eye on you since you are curious about everything around you that you want to touch and taste everything.
you are a perceptive child. you could readily sense when people are upset or unhappy and you are immediately affected. you also know what you want and when you want it. oh your such a big boy now, but to me even when you grow up you will still be my baby boy.
on my next entry i will tell you about the time you were hospitalized, which was last week - june 7-10. for now, i still have less than 20mins here at work. after that i will head straight home to make up for not spending time with you yesterday.
